Today was PERFECT weather to go trick or treating. Of course we're stuck at home.
I was going to make the most of it. We bought some candy and were going to give a handful to everyone in the house and take Jenica candy collecting in costume around the house. But everyone was being so pissy and self-centered today I just said fuck it to the whole thing.
I've been utterly miserable today. Couldn't even stand on the deck for 5 minutes for some calmness because I can't take Jenica with me and my grandpa thinks I'm just dumping Jenica off on whoever is around. She doesn't even break things. Apparently pots and pans are fragile...

I love holidays. Especially Halloween. But it just seems for the last several years I haven't got to enjoy one holiday. I'm either away, or it gets canceled due to outside forces, or I'm spending the entire day trying to live up to expectations.

I think I've decided when my grandparents pass on (or at least my grandma) I'm going to move. And after our bills and the car is paid off, obviously. Only have one car now. My mom just... GAVE Steve the Escort. Pisses me off. I'd been paying for the tags and everything on that damn car since 05 and just because the title is in her name she thinks it's hers. So fuck it. He'd probably have broken it or at the least damaged it to the point of being a junker by the time I get it back.
I think the only person I'd miss would be my dear friend Krystal. Another reason why I'm waiting until my grandma passes on... I would miss her too. But to be honest with myself she's had reacuring cancer for years and numerous heart attacks. She may not live another 5 years. So at least after that I'd only miss one person. And who knows, Krystal has been wanting a change in life. Maybe she'd move too. Although I don't see her moving far. Don't think she'd move out of state. And the likelyhood is slim since they started paying for a house... But who knows.. She's still talking about wanting to get away.
I'd miss some cousins of mine a lot too, but I don't see or talk to them too often as it is. Plus they vacation often. They may even "stop by" on occasion, depending where we are.

Places I've thought about are South Dakota (specifically Rapid City), Washington, or maybe even Oregon. I've heard it's beautiful there. I'd include Montana in that list but they don't tax things except like property so that's a shit load at the end of the year. Corey was talking about a family farm in Michigan but apparently it was sold to someone. I very much dislike California but I've heard the Northern section is much better and even quite beautiful. And polution free.
Anyone have any suggestions? I'm a small-town girl who'd like a new life but not change of scenery, if you get my meaning... I like openness, forested areas preferably. No big cities, no polution, low crime rate, no major nature catastrophies... Wish I could live on a farm away from everyone. Dreams...

Anyone wanna play Dungeons & Dragons Online with me? (ddo.com) It's free to play. I get bored playing by myself. And as a lowly mechanic rogue I'm not exactly battle-worthy... *cough* I die a lot. *cough*

I was going to post something but now I'm just agitated and don't feel like posting anything. Guess we'll have to wait till next month??